friends

I understand that all friendships change from day to day... As we travel down life's road, we become closer and grow apart regularly.

Growing up, I had maybe two close girl friends. I never really felt like I was a part of a community of friends. If I needed someone, I called either my best friend (a guy) or my boyfriend. It is a different kind of friendship with a male. They try to fix your problem or do not really get it - so in the end, I kept most of my "stuff" to myself.

Now, in my old age (haha) I am learning about friendship. Since having children, I have developed some amazing friendships. Some are based on our children, some are based on common ground, some are based on relationships at work... but all seem vital to me.

It is wonderful to experience that intimate friendship where you are free to express yourself however you need. It is hard to experience a close friendship start to fade. I believe that God has brought some very valuable ladies into my life.

This week has been difficult for me. I am experiencing the threat of a loss of the only great grandmother my children will ever remember. We cry at the thought of losing her. We hate the idea that she is not close by and we can not see her right now.... yet, this week has also been a testament to the many friends that surround my heart. The texts, emails, phone calls, and visits from friends to check up on me, how Scott is taking it, and my kids... it is overwhelming.

I spent 25 years of my life with basically two friends and a boyfriend. I felt alone.

I am now relishing the many wonderful people who I am choosing to share my life with. I am surrounded by friendships and love. I may be experiencing heartache, but I am in a very good place...

 I am not alone