hobbies

where did all of my time go?

I remember a time when I was scrapbooking like an animal... I was not only caught up, but I would go to crops and laugh because I had nothing to do...

okay...

I am now officially one year behind. It is very frustrating to me. It is not fun and is driving me crazy.

I need about a week with my family gone out of town and paid vacation from work for me...

... yea...

I guess I am going to have to get comfortable with being a year behind...

I'll live thru it

so much

so much time has passed since my last entry...
so much has gone on in the lives of our household since my last entry...
so much has brought me joy and
so much has driven me nuts...

Life goes on.

I would love the chance to hit the "pause button" sometimes just to sit back and take a breath...

I have been told to "slow down and smell the roses" but sometimes your life does not give you that opportunity. Life with three kids, a workaholic husband, family all over the place, work, appointments, friends, tragedies in friends' lives, and simple errands seem to control my existence...


I have to slow down and reflect... even if just for a moment

friends

I understand that all friendships change from day to day... As we travel down life's road, we become closer and grow apart regularly.

Growing up, I had maybe two close girl friends. I never really felt like I was a part of a community of friends. If I needed someone, I called either my best friend (a guy) or my boyfriend. It is a different kind of friendship with a male. They try to fix your problem or do not really get it - so in the end, I kept most of my "stuff" to myself.

Now, in my old age (haha) I am learning about friendship. Since having children, I have developed some amazing friendships. Some are based on our children, some are based on common ground, some are based on relationships at work... but all seem vital to me.

It is wonderful to experience that intimate friendship where you are free to express yourself however you need. It is hard to experience a close friendship start to fade. I believe that God has brought some very valuable ladies into my life.

This week has been difficult for me. I am experiencing the threat of a loss of the only great grandmother my children will ever remember. We cry at the thought of losing her. We hate the idea that she is not close by and we can not see her right now.... yet, this week has also been a testament to the many friends that surround my heart. The texts, emails, phone calls, and visits from friends to check up on me, how Scott is taking it, and my kids... it is overwhelming.

I spent 25 years of my life with basically two friends and a boyfriend. I felt alone.

I am now relishing the many wonderful people who I am choosing to share my life with. I am surrounded by friendships and love. I may be experiencing heartache, but I am in a very good place...

 I am not alone